shadow

wherever you go
you take it with you, always
your abstract shadow

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no stock for tonight

concealed under circles of smoke
embellished with flying ash
if you see a mossy face
with reddened eyes and glare on glasses
choking at times
but not stopping to light fags after fags
held by slender hands
you may think that he could be a poet
deep in his thought
or
a philosopher trying to theorise something nonsense
or
a lovelorn man struggling to cope with his recent tragedies

when i see
eight butts by my side
while trying to locate saturn in the hazy sky for an hour
i laugh at myself

why only mars and spica
and
jupiter, castor and pollux
are so conspicuous
and other planets are elusive tonight?

i fucqueen have only one cigarette left
and
all shops are closed by now

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save frogs

from an old dairy

hello!
planet earth here!

rd5: amphetamine

cued in veritably
maybe it’s a headway
i’m all ears

when dead tired
you count me out
oh
exhibitionists

for rupticism
what’s your hunch?
bad rep
you tailed him?

add up

hello folks
curse me for this rigmarole
but
save frogs and toads
i like their croaks

stashed away for years
my assets
have gathered dust
and
become a safe haven to silverfish
they rule in there and procreate
but i doubt
if they could swim in knowledge or taste sanskrit verses

i like mud and lotus and frogs
they deliver love and knowledge and wisdom
i want to swim in
from their puddle to ocean

grow flowers and give up guns
love frogs and stop hating others

high time indeed
to end the hibernation
and start singing like frogs
the esoteric songs
(of love and love-making)

when will it rain?
i need some muse again

(NaPoWriMo Day 30, Post# 31)

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can fish survive out of water

ninja tuna tracks
play in the background repeatedly
i don’t bother to change them
not even to lower the volume

i want to irritate myself
with music
that i would never get to understand

like a baked potato
about to get charred
in a kaput machine
i excuse myself
not to open the windows
even if i’ve confined myself
in a like-an-oven room

i want to let
the last drop of water in my body
ooze out and evaporate

like cures like
so they say

i want to opacify my vision instead
and
see whether fish can survive out of water
(NaPoWriMo Day 29)

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show me my sky

ए हिउँ 
मलाई मेरो आकाश देखाइ‍देऊ!….

———
oh snow,
show me my sky!

i will fly high
and
dive back onto you to cry
in happiness by
transforming pain to pleasure-sigh
anxiety to strength multiplied
ego to compassion dignified
grief to wisdom simplified…
————
this song
that nobody wrote or sang in real life
tickled my ears
from within several layers of dreams
in my morning sleep
and
is still reverberating
and
provoking me to find the meaning

(NaPoWriMo Day 28)

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confusion

got left in the lurch
after blowing hot and cold
with usual breath

confusion’s my ingrained trait
you took it for deception

(NaPoWriMo Day 25)

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fashion show

tgif nepal fashion week, kathmandu
to savour the shapes
rather than style or cover
people gather there

flesh tempts more than fashion does
i can bet my lost* dollar

*(sic)

(NaPoWriMo Day 24)

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mercurial fate

as head of the dragon
started spewing fire
i ran for cover

i ran far away
and decided
never to return

super sun
musing moon
jovial jupiter
mighty mars
all messed around and went past
as a mute spectator only
when i suffered the worst ever despair

combust mercury
and thus always mocked
nevertheless
brought the mercurial twist
in the story

i’m back home
after 16 days and 15 nights

i’m least worried now
for i’ve pulled in my horns
and
i won’t care
even if saturn makes me sad or strong
or
venus makes me virile or vile

fucqueen fate is mercurial
it can fuck us any time it wants

(NaPoWriMo Day 23)

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elusive illusion

what we call reality
is
but an elusive illusion
that has forced all
to accept what is not as what is
and vice versa

my being
and
thus these sufferings
mean nothing
compared to yours

you  know
so do i
that
you are me
and
i am you

even so
i suffer from denial of reality
and
you know
it’s a disease whatsoever

is it because
you have remained you
and
i could not rise above me?
————————–

come
and dissolve in me
or
invite me to dissolve in you

that union
when happens
will be prime

then
we will shine
with
another reality
nay
elusive illusion

(NaPoWriMo Day 22, Post#23)

days and nights

days are a despair and nights a nightmare
time gets stuck and leaves me not anywhere
bloody thoughts rule me when there is light
dark means no sleep or bad dreams marred by fright

(NaPoWriMo Day 21, Post#21)

border

mt machhapuchhre as seen from lake phewa in pokhara

mt machhapuchhre as seen from lake phewa in pokhara

नापेर नांगा आँखाले
अनुमानका भरमा
माछापुच्छ्रेको उचाइ
फेरि गलत हुनुछैन मलाई

किनकि
बादलको साम्राज्य फैलिँदा
छुट्टिँदैन
हिमाल र आकाशको सिमाना

——————————————–
i don’t want to gauge
machhapuchhre with bare eyes
and make its height
a wrong guesswork

when empire of clouds expands
border of mountains and sky
cannot be separated

(NaPoWriMo Post#17)

blood moon

maybe
you realised that
it’s you who made me mad

that’s why you felt bad
hid under the murk
and turned red-faced too
thousands of miles away from me Blood MoonPhoto: Associated Press
(NaPoWriMo Post#15)

domino effect


realisation that
i ain’t what i believed i was
made me feel bad

impression that
you became what i believed you weren’t
made me feel worse

either way
i look down on myself now

(NaPoWriMo Post#10)

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caterpillar to butterfly

making friends with a caterpillar
i’m waiting
it to become butterfly
and fly away with more colour

you are free to call me mad
but
what i want shall happen one day
if i don’t die

(NaPoWriMo Post#9)

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lows and a high

i tasted
two new flavours
one for you
the other for me

the breeze
that blew
to cool the heated evening
is the witness

though sweet and soothing
the treat
started tasting bitter
at the crossroad
where you left me high and dry
once upon a time

instantly
gripped by an anxiety bout afresh
then
i started measuring the path
towards an unknown safe haven
hurriedly
drenched in sweat
and drained of all energy

only to get over the low
i decided to taste
something that i’d never taste
as a gatecrasher

something is crawling
under my skin
i’m numb and irresolute too
but what i want to happen is
a magic – a black magic in fact
with a sweet aftermath

not to choke anymore
i’m readying myself
to stop breathing
but still living

this bloody air is contaminated
with
all dark and pungent smoke

can my olfaction
smell it sweet some day?

(NaPoWriMo Post#8)

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thunder monologue


thunder thunder big big sound
pour down pour down king of cloud
what i want is heavy rain
this stormy night of april fame

thunder strikes with flashes slight
takes off whirl of dust for flight
pigeons fly to reach their nest
midway spring is at its best

(NaPoWriMo Post#7)

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