mercurial fate

as head of the dragon
started spewing fire
i ran for cover

i ran far away
and decided
never to return

super sun
musing moon
jovial jupiter
mighty mars
all messed around and went past
as a mute spectator only
when i suffered the worst ever despair

combust mercury
and thus always mocked
nevertheless
brought the mercurial twist
in the story

i’m back home
after 16 days and 15 nights

i’m least worried now
for i’ve pulled in my horns
and
i won’t care
even if saturn makes me sad or strong
or
venus makes me virile or vile

fucqueen fate is mercurial
it can fuck us any time it wants

(NaPoWriMo Day 23)

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elusive illusion

what we call reality
is
but an elusive illusion
that has forced all
to accept what is not as what is
and vice versa

my being
and
thus these sufferings
mean nothing
compared to yours

you  know
so do i
that
you are me
and
i am you

even so
i suffer from denial of reality
and
you know
it’s a disease whatsoever

is it because
you have remained you
and
i could not rise above me?
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come
and dissolve in me
or
invite me to dissolve in you

that union
when happens
will be prime

then
we will shine
with
another reality
nay
elusive illusion

(NaPoWriMo Day 22, Post#23)

days and nights

days are a despair and nights a nightmare
time gets stuck and leaves me not anywhere
bloody thoughts rule me when there is light
dark means no sleep or bad dreams marred by fright

(NaPoWriMo Day 21, Post#21)

border

mt machhapuchhre as seen from lake phewa in pokhara

mt machhapuchhre as seen from lake phewa in pokhara

नापेर नांगा आँखाले
अनुमानका भरमा
माछापुच्छ्रेको उचाइ
फेरि गलत हुनुछैन मलाई

किनकि
बादलको साम्राज्य फैलिँदा
छुट्टिँदैन हिमाल र आकाशको सिमाना

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i don’t want to gauge
machhapuchhre with bare eyes
and make its height
a wrong guesswork

when empire of clouds expands
border of mountains and sky
cannot be separated

(NaPoWriMo Post#17)

blood moon

maybe
you realised that
it’s you who made me mad

that’s why you felt bad
hid under the murk
and turned red-faced too
thousands of miles away from me Blood MoonPhoto: Associated Press
(NaPoWriMo Post#15)

mars dates moon

moon-jupiter-new-year-kathmandu-virgo

maiden evening
seeing mars and moon on date
i ran far away

but there to here, lights to woods
why did they chase me again?

moon-mars-pine-trees(NaPoWriMo Post#14)

i promised my eyes a life

                           (National Poetry Writing Month Day 13)

i gazed at my eyes
i forced myself to see
what they were up to
i tried to listen to them

browbeaten by bothersome brain
and
well-worn for want of repose
they remained silent for a while
and
looked back at me innocently

with an innate brightness
they naively
spilled
curiosity and will to see more

that is to say
they protested
what i was up to
ignorant of what they actually did

then i promised them a life

all have to die some time or other
be that as it may
i shall live
i shall live at least for my innocent eyes

i’ve  promised my eyes my life
i’ll live

(NaPoWriMo Post#13)

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domino effect


realisation that
i ain’t what i believed i was
made me feel bad

impression that
you became what i believed you weren’t
made me feel worse

either way
i look down on myself now

(NaPoWriMo Post#10)

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caterpillar to butterfly

making friends with a caterpillar
i’m waiting
it to become butterfly
and fly away with more colour

you are free to call me mad
but
what i want shall happen one day
if i don’t die

(NaPoWriMo Post#9)

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lows and a high

i tasted
two new flavours
one for you
the other for me

the breeze
that blew
to cool the heated evening
is the witness

though sweet and soothing
the treat
started tasting bitter
at the crossroad
where you left me high and dry
once upon a time

instantly
gripped by an anxiety bout afresh
then
i started measuring the path
towards an unknown safe haven
hurriedly
drenched in sweat
and drained of all energy

only to get over the low
i decided to taste
something that i’d never taste
as a gatecrasher

something is crawling
under my skin
i’m numb and irresolute too
but what i want to happen is
a magic - a black magic in fact
with a sweet aftermath

not to choke anymore
i’m readying myself
to stop breathing
but still living

this bloody air is contaminated
with
all dark and pungent smoke

can my olfaction
smell it sweet some day?

(NaPoWriMo Post#8)

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thunder monologue


thunder thunder big big sound
pour down pour down king of cloud
what i want is heavy rain
this stormy night of april fame

thunder strikes with flashes slight
takes off whirl of dust for flight
pigeons fly to reach their nest
midway spring is at its best

(NaPoWriMo Post#7)

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unhappy

you are unhappy
when you carry umbrella
but it doesn’t rain

you are unhappy
when you do not make mistakes
but you are punished

you are unhappy
when you cannot tell the truth
and you are misread

you are unhappy
when you can’t follow your dreams
and curse yourself

being unhappy is my trait
need no reason to suffer

(NaPoWriMo Post#5)

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